Tech Or Connect?

Everything is created with tech,

why can’t it be that old and simple connect.

When we used to meet each other,

and fight for it never to end.

Maybe it’s time to log out,

and sense for real that sweet taste of your mouth.

We need to touch, smell, hear! it’s simple just feel!

Please. Feel.. One day it might not even be real.

Memory. That’s all that will be left.

The memory of that old and simple connect.

 

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the past and future. Life and death. I realized that an average person has about 90 years to live and what do we do? we sit in front of a little machine that distract us from the world, from the closest to us. A lunch with my mother became a lunch of four: Mother, me, her chat and mine. I realized that I live in this routine: All around me,my friends including myself we meet to hang out and all we do is waste time in the phone, Going to school became complete silent and all I hear is the ticking sound from almost every person in the bus. Headphones, instead of getting to know new people we enter in our world of music and sounds. In the past children would go out and play the whole day but now… Its different. some still do but lets face reality, times have changed.

I’m angry on that little machine that separates between people while at the same time I’m grateful for their existence. without them we wouldn’t be able to talk with family abroad or with friends. It’s crazy that such a small tool became such a great part of us. But, there’s a big but. we can’t let it affect our interaction with people, eventually while we get old we switch dozens of phones, always the newest version. But family, friends, you will never switch them for a new generation or try to update them so they can become better. You love them as they are and them acting like themselves keeps you balanced and calm. When the end comes real human beings are kept by our side. So what I think is… Let’s stop for a second and think: is it really worth it? Is it worth it not pausing that game so I can have dinner with family.Is it worth talking through social media when we live 5 minutes from each other? The answer is simple No! A big No!

Technology is a wonderful things don’t get me wrong, it keeps us progressing, but remember that we don’t live such a long time, and in that time we have the gift of feeling touching and always having new experiences. Technology comes with responsibility, we must know how to put limits and realizing when it’s enough. Use that little time we own to be with the ones we love and care,

Remember, “We are all just passengers here” (Hawthorne Heights/ passengers). 

I wish you all the best, never regret being alive and making mistakes it’s a big part of us. Love and protect your loved ones, they love you and want the best for you.

Gabby

 

 

 

 

Freedom.

“It’s a new down,  a new day, It’s a new life for me….

                                                                                                         AND I’M FEELING GOOD!” (Nina Simone)

 

Floating high in the sky like a cloud

I can even shout out loud!

I can make a sound and even a hound

 

Maybe I’m an animal,

Don’t you think I’m being cynical!

Laugh and gasp, 

and even put me under traps!

 

Maybe It’s my inferior,

Finally looking at himself in the mirror.

And maybe I’m a new me,

I’m who I decide to be.

And that. That is what everyone will see.

The Felling Of Not Feeling. Can It Be???

Have you ever felt the feeling of not feeling?

3 A.M in the morning and I begin to wonder….

you stare at the one you supposed to loved, that loves you more than anything in the world and you just sit still. You can’t take a word out of your mouth. You are just frozen like an iceberg in the middle of the ocean that made the titanic sink.

then you questionasse yourself about whats wrong with yourself? your family thinks you are replacing the snow queen, heartless. You might feel constantly the feeling of discomfort and you can’t make yourself comfort near you partner. I know because it happens to me and sometimes the discomfort leads me to the feeling of suffocating, suddenly I cant do nothing except thinking about it.

it doesn’t meant something is wrong with you, maybe it’s not the right person. I think like that sometimes and other times I just wonder if its possible that not like other girls I just can’t like someone easily? How can it be? This doesnt have an answer, our body is so mysterious that we don’t know nothing, the brain decides whats right for him and maybe his a little bit harsh in his choices or maybe his waiting for your best match.

but after all, you just. cant. feel.

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you have tried to obligate yourself to feel, maybe something will come out but no.

The biggest question people like us ask is: Will we ever feel what love feels like?

The thing is that I don’t know.

Even if you never felt what is love it doesn’t mean you are heartless. we have our family, our pets and even thing that are important to us and we will do anything to protect them.

When it comes to love…. It just disappears.

I look at his loving face willing to do everything and more to make me happy. And I. I can’t even say “I like you” because I’m not even sure.

The weird thing is, do you know what you feel for sure? How we always come to the situation that X loves Y and Y loves T and T loves I that loves X, It’s a never-ending circle, why can’t it go right?!

eventually we and up with someone who was in love with you for years and you discover a different side of him only after years of acquaintance and evaluate the possibility of falling in love. And still, Why cant I feel?

Think about it, maybe we hold a person for too long. While we desperately try to fall in love, they fall for us even more. One they might stumble and understand their masochistic love: loving the unlovable. We are cold, and hard to open but they don’t know that it’s not something easy, we or at least I want to feel. I want to fall in love for real just like my parents, and not live a life without tasting the taste of love.

I was never the type that talked about love, I always prefers science and literature. But loving to write comes with a consequence: it makes you understand who you really are.

Who are you?

Maybe its just me, Maybe not.

I wish all of you to feel. Feel every single thing from happiness to pain.

we have a limited time and should make the best out of it.

From me to you,

The Wonders Of Gabby At 3 A.M

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It’s Time To Comfront That “Tock” From Our old Time Clock

 

Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed
~Wayne Dyer~

I know you are somewhere out there, maybe getting back from school or university maybe taking care of you children. Someone who is actually me.

Reading and reading, everything from a book to my small blog, having a great wish to say something but then comes the “but”. You just can’t. The fear is bigger than anything you have experienced, to expose yourself. All the stress and anxiety you have tried to hide for years rises upon surface.

All the people who said you aren’t good enough from a small age, that fed your self-esteem come to visit you. You say hello and they ignore. Ignorance was something I know very well for being “the invisible girl”, “the nice” oh my favorite “the smart one” most of the times it never bothered me, but with all my quirkiness I used to look around and ask myself “why can’t I be one of them”. Now I realize that I’ll never be, and now I know I don’t want to be like them. From my perspective I can look around without being judged, I can be myself without boundaries.

If I could send a message to my 8 year old self it would be: “Enough thinking that you are stupid, do what ever you want to do from being weird until being too nice. Enough looking at those perfect little girl who always bring you down because one day it will change. Always but always be loyal yo yourself, don’t be scared of singing in front of people from the fear of what they’ll say about you. Study hard and stop wondering if those are your friends just because of your brain. Remember that I love you and now it’s time to you to love yourself.”

We learn different things as the time passes, we discover what we love and what we hate. Who we want to get to know and who we should be careful. The past is something we carry our whole lives but one day we need to let it go. Life is a period you have the chance to do as much as you can. Don’t waste it on wondering what if or what will.

JUST DO IT NOW.

A Small Glance Can Make You Advance

While the brown leaves fall,

I think about you and all.

I stare and stare and thing about change,

that would probably be so strange.

Breaking down my puzzle,

I know I’ll miss the idea of us being a couple.

Where would I find new pieces? 

Maybe I can buy a new one and make the other gone..

Nothing of me will be left,

although I know that it would be just like I expect. Just not me anymore…

 

I will grow,

but never go this low.

What am I without me,

I need to learn to love what I see and one day even say; “hey, this is me”

 

the brown leaves become green,

another time is about to begin.

fresh and strong, enough being alone.

 

Let go the bad,

remember the sad,

Be MAD,

and blush exactly like the colour red.

 

Become new without selling the old,

never forget that you are gold,

maybe one day you may even own the world.

 

If I only had the courage to say

I felt green today,

even though it’s an ugly thing to say.

It took me by surprise,

I was surely not ready for this ride..

 

If i could’ve only feel pink,

that would had stopped me from sinking.

If so, I wouldn’t be here struggling to write in ink,

but. so I did and so I admit.

 

It is difficult to describe,

the exactly mess I feel inside.

a storm that doesn’t have an end,

she is leaving  me here,

and this storm will always be near.

 

that green monster stung me,

she charms everyone even me,

but steel I feel like a third wheel.

 

I was envy,

that’s why I feel so engry.

the closest person to me

is going away,

letting me here to stay.

 

she is flying a way,

good luck i say.

I love you,

my best friend, my shoulder, my sister.

 

you will not always belong,

but that’s a reason for me to write this song.

I will be with you all along,

your little sister.

Distance VS Resitance

Years over years i couldn’t bare contact, corny sentences, kissing on the neck or the cheak. U absolutelt HATED it.

I couldn’t understand why. Some if you may have experienced this: “why me? Why can’t I be so loving like everyone else? Why I can’t enjoy a hug or a nice saying?”

There’s a point that you feel diferent from every other girl, you start questioning your tendencies. You go on te bus and look stare but usually you jyst can’t look in the eye if no one. You are a COWARD! Why cant you lok they are just like you, flesh and blood.

Your friends say that you shouldn’t be scared, they may look prettier but what about your caracture.

We should admit that CONTACT IS NECESSARY!! If we like it or not.

Now everything changed and i don’t know how to react….

I think I’m falling but I’m afraid this feeling will dissapear. Something tells me it’s different. Different is good different is strange.

Suddenly I enjoy the touching the corny sentences the hugging the warm kisses what the hell everything is happening so fast.

I CAN’T bare being away from him.
I JUST CAN’T!

I think I’m falling.

And it’s scary.

 

“Let Me Be” #AllOfUs

“Let me be! Just let me be!”

“I want freedom, to do what I want and not what you want!”

“This is not fair!”

“Why me?!”

“Not my fault!”
We all wish to be left alone. We complain over such banal things. We wish to express what we want to do, what we want to have. We just want for the reason of wanting. But when they finally do, when the leave us. you still want to be. 

To be with them.

Quote of the day

I decided to do something I haven’t done yet so… Here’s my quote of the day

Be the change you want to see in the world

(Mahatma Gandhi)
I wanted to share this familiar quote with you because people especially writers love to hide behind their stories and wirds. Let’s all be what we want to be! that’s so much easier than pretending to be what we are not. So let’s follow Gandhi’s advice and do it, be sttonger and happier, enjoy life and embrace it!

Have an awesome day,

Gabby :3

A Free Fall To The World Of Lo-

He is always near you,

somehow you never no what to do.

where to locate your hands

so many demands!

what are those messages he sends?

 

the fear says “Run girl! now!”

the rush exclaims “don’t you dare give up”

left or right, fear or rush,

to dare or to send it to no where.

 

It’s to late now…

 

Silence, everything is dark

Don’t deserve I to get a bit of luck?

I want to fall in but afraid to fall down.

where is the end? what is the length?

It’s a free fall, the problem is that I’m not that tall.

One day I’ll get to the floor,

But I know I will always want more